It's been kicked out of me.
I can't go into full details... I don't think my soul can take reciting the drama over and over. I went to the unit, was refused my medication, was left crying a room for two hours, my alter Isaac was ignore and mistreated, I was abandoned and victimised. BY THE PEOPLE WHO WERE SUPPOSED TO HELP ME.
I don't know I feel anymore, if I want to go back, if I even can... all that progress, all that faith.... smashed!
I have not cut. But it's only a matter of time before the pot boils over.
Feeling pretty reckless. Like I want to rebel. I want to fuck the system that has let me down so much!
3 comments:
its hard when the people you are supposed to rely on fail and refuse to help in any way. im sorry our having such a bad day
Oh sweetness I hope your going to be okay xx
Your desire to get well, must be stronger than your desire to punish them for their stupidity.
Forgive them, and keep working to get better. Use the system to your personal advantage in spite of its flaws and abuses.
Its one of the things I have learned from helping my little sister. The systems that are supposed to help are full of abuses. But we can still use them to our advantage, if we persevere, and hold on to and use the good, and disregard and forgive the bad.
love tonjia
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